The other day I found myself telling the Lord…
“Alright Lord….the only way I’m gonna actually make it through this season of "unknown" is if you take me into your genuine satisfaction.”
Real talk translation...
God I'm sick of talking about your satisfaction. Like...if you don't take me into the real deal this ain't gonna work.
I realized yet again that God loves when we contend for His promises. He has promised full satisfaction in Him. And we talk a lot of talk, but yet how many of us have actually experienced this? I know for me I’ve experienced moments —beautiful moments that have marked me forever. But I know in this current season those intimate memories with Him will not sustain what I actually need to make it to the other side of this. I need more. I need the fullness of His presence on a daily basis. Without it I will not have what I’m actually yearning for.
I know myself too well...Janae [apart from the presence of God] will grab everything thats near to try to satisfy. However, I've tried that. And it doesn't work.
The truth is being fully satisfied can only be found within the person of Jesus (His presence).
Not when we talk about Him.
Not when we sing about Him.
And not when we work for Him.
Assuming you can have satisfaction with God through those things is like thinking you can be fully satisfied in a romantic relationship by talking about the person you love...or working for them; but yet never spending intimate time and experiencing connection with the person.
It's honestly hilarious when looking at it from that standpoint.
Why do humans continue to live as though satisfaction with God can genuninely be found through talking about Him? Or working for Him?
If you are in a season of the unknown (much like myself), or if you are in a time of waiting for God to intervene and you feel like you’re in the wilderness, I’d encourage you to go read the story of the Israelites awaiting the promised land. It was in the season of the wilderness that God lured His people into the desert because He wanted to romance them and satisfy them beyond their wildest dreams. He longed to reveal Himself to them and make them His bride. But yet, they were afraid of Him. And they could not stand the uncomfortable feeling of learning to rely on Him in total dependence —so they sabotaged what God was longing to do.
God wanted to truly satisfy them in His presence. And then out of the deep place of connection and intimacy, He would lead them into the promised land.
The truth is the promised land SUCKS apart from His presence.
You’ll get there and you'll find yourself just as dissatisfied and just as depressed as you were back in the desert.
Friends, don’t sabotage the purpose of the wilderness.
Don’t resent it and do everything in your power to escape it like the Israelites did.
Intimacy and satisfaction start with a surrendered heart.
God is longing to lure you into His inner chambers and romance you. He yearns to become one with you, and teach you how to feast off His every word —and feast off His presence. And out of that deep place of connection and love He wants to lead you into your true promised land.
Personally, I refuse to miss out on the treasure thats found in this season of the unknown.
If satisfaction is what the wilderness brings...yes Lord bring it on.
Hosea 2: 14-20
But then I will win her back once again.
I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there.
I will return her vineyards to her
and transform the Valley of Trouble into a gateway of hope.
She will give herself to me there,
as she did long ago when she was young,
when I freed her from her captivity in Egypt.
When that day comes,” says the Lord,
“you will call me ‘my husband’
instead of ‘my master.’
O Israel, I will wipe the many names of Baal from your lips,
and you will never mention them again.
On that day I will make a covenant
with all the wild animals and the birds of the sky
and the animals that scurry along the ground
so they will not harm you.
I will remove all weapons of war from the land,
all swords and bows,
so you can live unafraid
in peace and safety.
I will make you my wife forever,
showing you righteousness and justice,
unfailing love and compassion.
I will be faithful to you and make you mine,
and you will finally know me as the Lord.